I have been thinking today about how to do this blog in a way that is not just inspirational but always will help people who are maybe wanting advice on just one aspect. I am no expert by any means by I am determined and I think that positive thinking can have such a good impact on your life.

I started this blog as I got to the point where I was feeling like I was going on a spiral, starting pigging out, feeling sorry for myself being not able to mobilise, go out alone, having to rely on my boyfriend for a lot of things, not feeling like I have any support or friends where I am. Losing my grip on my thinking and just being down in the dumps all the time and starting a business as I wanted to have something to do that would be a hobby, not for an income and seeing it not take any sales at all in January. That and my spiritual support of the church turning on me and just literally the few people I saw stopped contacting me even the vicar and his wife because I didn’t agree with some of their opinions – mainly, break up with your partner of 9 1/2 years and we basically will only accept you if set a marriage date.

It’s not because we don’t want to be married, its just with family health and my health and things along the way, it hasn’t been as easy as let’s get married as I take my faith very seriously. But enough about that….

I turned so negative and was becoming critical of anything around me, especially myself! I was body shaming myself, telling myself I had no friends as I must be boring and after my university friends stopped communicating with me on a regular basis after I become ill and left the area I was at, it was just another icing on the cake. I could have done more myself as well.People are surely put off when I just am down about stuff all the time.

But, we have the power to choose our thoughts (in a way – not under-condemning mental health at all – after all I have had PTSD myself after suffering sexual abuse in my earlier years) and yes, we may be in a position where we just feel crap about ourselves, not knowing who we are, so how do we get out.

This blog is a honest documentation of my journey in healing the mind, the body and the soul with the hope that others will join me on the journey and it can be a support to them and to myself.

So join me on this journey, yes, it will be hard, yes, there will be down days and good days. But the intention is to explore if some healthier lifestyle will help with physicality, a more positive mindset will aid with a more get up and go jolly outlook and a look into different avenues of spirituality to see if they aid the soul. (Doesn’t mean I am going against my faith)

Join me today, taking responsibility for our downfalls, our pitfalls and turning them on their head – as they say (whoever they are!) Turn that frown upside down!

Hansi xx